Please post with no name. I am desperate for feedback.
I am new to your web site and think I would benefit from reading Shawns book. My vet is on your web site and I am afraid to post anything on it. My heart is breaking in million pieces. I have had thing said to me and been hurt in a way that I never thought I would put up with. Then I keep going back to him. I question my own sanity. I wonder if I have such low self esteem that I think I deserve to be treated like this. My vet was in the Bosnia and is just starting to get honest with a counselor. I have experienced first hand with him the mishandling of vets and seen how hard he has fought for everything he has. I was not with him before his service in the Army and had no idea what I was getting into. I see this glimmer of a good, loving deserving person in him that I don’t think he even sees but I have built up a wall towards him just as self preservation and I feel harden towards him because of that. His family has turned away from him and his first wife has a restraining order against him so he can’t see his kids. He has no friends and so I am all he has and he hates for me to have a life outside of us. Its killing me. The jelousy is awful. The not sleeping, the anger, social and general anxiety, the feelings of hoplessness is overwhelming.
Don’t post. We both read a posting from Jason H. and it makes sense. Why continue a relationship that is all fighting. He can concentrate on his issues and I’ll concentrate on mine.
I do think however, geinttg it from war like meis worse than all the others no offense. But sitting behind a tree praying a piece of shrapnel wont hit you as machine guns fire and people scream and there’s nothing you can do to save them and hearing the enemy shout I’n foreign languages and knowing you have to kill someone ..to take someones life for your country ..is just ..god ..it’s horrible. I never go within a two mile radius of a fun store I’n case ya know
I don’t know if you will ever come back to this page, but I wanted to tell you it was the same for me. It was a nightmare, but after couples PTSD therapy once a week, we are in a MUCH better place. It’s so hard to stay by him. So… Alone. As long as there is no physical abuse, try your hardest to stick it out. I felt completely insane. I didn’t know up from down. And I was so worried about his temper with the kids. Life is so much better now.
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